The joys of May
I had found out that day or the day before, and had had a hard time keeping the secret even that long. I remember practically dancing from foot to foot in their sunny living room, telling him that he was going to get a present for his birthday but that it would take nine months to be delivered. Dad regarded me for a long moment with a confused look on his face, obviously aware of some hidden message but not quite able to piece it together. My mother, on the other hand, squealed in a lovely supersonic yelp that might have been, 'REALLY?' before we both burst into tears and fell into a hug. Looking back, it's sweetly ironic now that Simon and Papa Lou have a special bond that defies description. It hasn't occured to me for years that we announced his pending arrival as a birthday gift to my Dad.
I have to admit, I've been thinking a lot about that May, back in 2003, as this month unfolded. Of course, I started the month with babies on my brain as my lost due date came and went just before our cottage weekend. And here we find ourselves deep in the thick of a hockey playoff season, just like we were in 2003. For those of you who haven't read it, the story of how I found out I was pregnant with Simon has always been one of my very favourite stories, and I'll wait if you want to go read it and see what I mean.
See? I mean, of course I'm biased, but I've always loved that story. And each year, I can't help but smile nostagically as I hop back on to the hockey bandwagon, because exciting playoff hockey games and happy news are now inextricably linked in the mythology of my family.
I've been conscious, as the month of May passed this year with its many highs and lows, of that blissful May four years ago. So much so that when I found myself a few days late again this month, I couldn't help but smile. I am, after all, only a couple of days late. I really do know better than to get excited over a mere couple of days.
But I kept thinking about buying that test and bringing it home, and it was a Wednesday four years ago, too. And I kept remembering that hockey game back in 2003, and how exciting it was having the game and the big maybe all tied up in my brain, and I couldn't help but think about tonight's game, Game Two. And when I found myself wide awake at 2:30 in the morning for the second night running, I puzzled over my insomnia for a while before realizing that the only other times I have suffered insomnia have been while I was pregnant.
So I went out at lunchtime today, and I bought a test. A two-pack, of course.
And then when I got back to the office, I just couldn't stand having the damn thing there and not doing anything about it, so I decided what the hell. I'll take the test. So on my lunch break, with far from my first morning urine in a stall in the office bathroom, I took the test.
And it was positive! A big, dark, immediate and unmistakable plus sign. I'm pregnant!
So I've been walking around my office all afternoon with a positive pregnancy test tucked safely in my pocket, and Fates be Damned, I've been having a lot of fun flashing it to a select group of my absolutely lovely, sweet and supportive colleagues, none of whom flinched at me waving a peed-on stick around in front of them and several of whom cried or squealed in delight or did both.
Oh, and speaking of colleagues? Shhhhh! What we say in the blogosphere stays in the blogosphere, at least for now, okay?
Four weeks down, 36 to go...
Labels: Postcards from my uterus